silly empty me

wut would u feel

2009-08-30T10:44:00.000-07:00

huhuhu...what would you feel when you are in the middle of a fasting day trying to complete all your assignments and suddenly you felt uncomfortable...you wanted to go to the ladies and once you were there you found that you were bleeding...an abnormal bleeding...blood plus your urine...and after you had finished you felt very painful...a pain that you wouldn't know how to describe...and besides that you'll have to go to the ladies once in every 5 minutes...huhuhuhu...each 5 minutes made you feel the horrible pain...huhuhu...at that moment, i thought to myself, "how will i bear the pain while delivering my baby in the future?"huhuhuhu...thanks sayang for being there for me...

oh my god

2009-08-18T08:03:00.000-07:00

td time tayangan movie utk ELS, i met one of my school friends, Farid...
and he is also a friend of Zati's...
and he asked me whether i've join the batch page or not...
so he sent me the address...
and just now while i was browsing through the page i was screaming like hell...
waaaaa...
there were a lot that i've missed!!
huhuhu...
i miss you guys so much ok!!!
and i pitied myself so much coz last weekend i accompanied syamil to meet his school sweethearts but then i did not meet my own school sweethearts...
wawawawa...
sytra 29, azu mnx ampun...
huhuhu...
there are two things that made me screamed like hell...

1) bad - used to be a boyish type of girl
- now she wears blusher and high heels
2) eton - her daughter is sooooooooooooo cute mute

waaaaa....
rindu okay!!!!
hukhuk...
thanks to farid for giving me the web address...
and of course aku dh register...
ala2 facebook gitu tp utk batch aku jekk... :P
huhuhu...
rindu...rindu...rindu....

happy birthday

2009-08-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

ari nie besday dua classmates aku...
alan n aishah...
dua2 neh jd classmates aku dr last sem sbb sama2 amik literature...
n it happened to be yg dua2 neh very sweet n nice fwens...
aishah...cool,sempoi...
kdg2 aku takot ngan dia...:P
alan or nama btol christina...
comel,sgt manja,sgt happy go lucky...
n dia panggil aku koala bear...
ada ke patot...
tp x pa...
hehhe...
tp td ptg celebrate besday aishah ja...
alan g celeb ngan budak2 non muslim rasanya...
sbb diorg sgt close to each other...
by the way...
pasal aishah...
aku join je sbb besties aishah who are zati,anne ngan tina ajak...
depa nk surprisekn si aishah neh...
siap beli tepung ubi kayu lg...
n guess what...
sgt havoc...kejadian berlaku kt court bola tampar...
aishah ngan semangatnya pkai sports shoes sbb igt nk men basketball...
hehehe...
sedap kan tepung ubi kayu plus mocha cake...
hehehe...
nk tgk pics?
jenguk la blog tina...
mesti ada pnya...
eheheh...
kt cni ada pic aku n hubby je...hikhik...
jgn marah!!

di celah-celah kesibukan

2009-08-08T06:28:00.000-07:00

di celah-celah masing-masing muka macam nak telan laptop, me is still me...aku mesti gak wat bnda sengal...hihihi...and kali neh di celah-celah sibuk wat report SBE...smlm izzati aka temporary roomate tgh kalot struggle siapkan report SBE, aku dgn slumbernya ckp "Zati,azu nk tidoq la...sat ja"...hehehe...and confirm la sat aku tue means smpai pg kan...ahaks...trok2...huhuhu...bila p klas aku la yg plaing berkerut-kerut...sbb...org len smua dh maju ke depan...aku baru tekedek-kedek nk start...mula la nervous bagai...waaa...so dgn bertungkus-lumus, aku ngan partner aku, Aaron p lepak kt library...berbekalkan info yg kami kumpul, aku ngan aaron pon gadoh...tatau nk decide wat cmna...sbb mcm2 version yg kuaq...wahhh...neh sudah parah namanya...and last skali yg terdecide is wat dulu one journal for each topic...wokeh...aku pon khusyuk la wat journal...skali aku pusing tgk aaron, mak aih...dia tgh khusyuk chatting kt game online dia...panas btol ati...huhu...tue la routine aaron kt skolah kalo aku x ajak dia p cari cikgu...hukhuk...ok2...back to the topic...tgh aku struggle siapkan journal, syamil meh library..."Azu, jom p cs...mcvalue lunch.."errr...nk refuse ke?tp mcm best...haish...cmna neh...on je la...ajak zati skali...tina n zatul pn ikot...but then smua cancel...aku dh muncung...syamil dh majuk...haish...aku pon bgn kuaq dr library...angkut sgala brg...smpai kt rak,kal syamil..."Abg kt mana?"..."kt blok...kuaq jom"...aku pon x hesitate lg tros stuju...tamo gadoh lama2 dh...huhuhu...ok...so keja aku stop kt situ...smpai around 2.30 aku balik mktb...dumm atas katil...zati pon baru balik...dia ckp dh lunch...huhu...aku on laptop...layan game...x jugak sambung keja...after dh abeh men game, bleh plak aku wat decision nk tidoq...tp before tidoq ada gak la aku wat cket keja...then trtidoq...bgn2 tgk jam...wahh...dh kol 5...mak aih..mlm ada event kt hall...cmna neh...gelabah bewak...p mandi2...abeh mandi aku msg farid tnya bleh dpt excuse x...dgn vangganya dia kata kali nie x bleh tolong...huhuhu...mampos...tnya zati,tamo p...tnya neda,pon mcm tamo p...tnya wanie...gelabah cicak gak minah tue...dia tnya shikin...shikin kata dia ok ja...then dia tnya vicky,vicky x bg...arghhh...cmna neh...dgn nekadnya neda msg aku.."azu,kte x g la dwn"...wahh...ok2...zati pon tamo p...so aku pon x p...tgh best2 wat keja,zati kata x pyh p hall...dpt excuse...and wan z lah kena wat suratnya...tq wan z!!and aku pon berjaya menyiapkan journal...n aku tingin makan roti canai...yes!!!syamil belikan...waaaa...besh2...dh mkn roti canai sakit perot plak...hadeh...masalah btoi...huhuhu...tp sempat gak tgk cita korea...three dads & 1 mom...hahaha...after dh abeh mkn,maka aku pon menyambung keja...guess what...smpai pukul 4 pg tau aku siapkn report...waaaaa...letih nk mati...esoknya plak,time pg aku x klas IAC sbb bgn lmbt...together with cik zati...kebetulan syamil pon x p jugak...huhu...abeh ja sesi kuliah pg tue,aku pon menyambung keja2 siapkan portfolio...after abeh duet dkt rm20 n memerah keringat...pukul 3.20pm tue aku pon submit...huhuhu...tamau dh p SBE...praktikum pon cmneh gak ke????wawawawa...ni lah yg dikatakan di celah-celah kesibukan!!

kamu rasa

2009-08-04T05:19:00.000-07:00

Nufa Syazliana
Ahmad Syazril

......................

2009-08-04T04:01:00.000-07:00

i dunno wut to say...
though i had this chance to be on line...
but i still dunno wut to say...
though so many things happened these days...
yet i still dunno wut to say...
hmmh...
looking at people walked by...
i stared at them empty-headed...
why???
because i've been missing him badly...
very badly...
and only he understands why...
huhuhu...

ready to become a teacher cum mother

2009-07-29T21:04:00.000-07:00

ok...first thing first...a day before yesterday aku ngan aaron sepatotnya collect info pasal aktiviti koko...so kami pilih Persatuan Pengakap sbb pk koko dia ckp pengakap yg aktif...kebetulan cikgu pengakap neh adalah cikgu pendidikan kahs yg sgt bz...so kena la wat appointment...dia soh jmpa around 11.15a.m...lebey krg 11.30 aku ngan aaron p jmpa dia...interview la pasal pengakap...then ada selit2 pasal pendidikan khas...kt dlm bilik guru pend khas tue ada 3 class...lg dua kt bilik seblah...classes tue plak level 1,level 2 n level 4...aku pelik...awat plak level 2 then tros level 4...cikgu tue kata level 4 n level 5 x bleh dok dekat2...sbb depa neh la yg paling low dr segi iq,eq segala...plus hyper plak tue...then masa dok sembang2 aku dengaq klas level 2 bising...aku tgk la...then ada sorg budak neh,naufal nama dia...down syndrome...comel bangat...dia tgh tukaq baju...pkai short ngan tshirt ada kolar...bleh plak dia pakai tie skolah...heheh...dia tgh smpn baju skolah dia dlm beg masa tue..cikgu dia kata dia nk p keja...then dia pon wat2 mcm nek moto...mmg lawak gila...aku pon tros la sembang ngan cikgu tue...puan juraida...bila aku pusing tgk naufal tue, dia dh terbaring atas lantai...pegang dada dia...tekejot aku...sakit ka budak nie...skali dia jerit..."tolong...tolong...teman...tolong"...Puan Juraida tue dh gelak2...dia kata naufal neh suka berlakon...bleh kata tiap2 ari...tp mmg real ahh dia blakon...aaron pun stuju...then Puan Juraida tuecp budak down syndrome neh pembersih...sbb tue naufal tue tukaq baju dia...padahal basah sikit ja kena ayaq...hehehe...so aku concludekan,budak down syndrome lg pembersih dr kita sendri kan???hehehe...sgt comel...tiap2 ari lalu kt klas tue kalo nk p kantin...:)

then ari neh ada lg satu peristiwa...pukul 8.45 aku ngan aaron msok klas...after abeh klas, aku masok bilik guru...tmpt kami kt blkg skali...kt blkg tmpt kami ada meja makan n sofa...kt atas sofa tue aku nampak ada budak laki tgh tidoq...aaron ckp dia demam, tp parent tadak kt umah...kesiannya...aku asyik tgk budak tue ja...sbb dia tgh tidoq...bila dia bgn,aku tros p kt dia...muka dia merah n aku tau demam dia trok...aku tnya dh mkn ubat blom...dia ckp dh...sedih gila tgk dia...so aku tros p kt meja amik gula2 dlm beg aku...aku bg kt dia...hope gula2 tue bleh wat dia lupa sakit demam dia sat...even sat pon x pa...at least dia x rasa sgt...huhuhu...
bila balik kt tmpt aku,aku msg syamil...dia kata baiknya cikgu...bukan sbb baik ke x...tp sbb ada satu perasaan yg aku x bleh nk explain...sama mcm aku tgk naufal tue...aku rasa nk plok dia...tp x boleh kan...mana bleh sentuh pelajar berlainan jantina over2 kan...huhuhu...
maybe this is the right path for me to start my life...

love from a teacher + mother to be...LOL

wifi maktab + SBE

2009-07-27T06:30:00.000-07:00

wifi maktab mmg x snonoh...
angin satu badan aku...
huhuhu...
lama gila x bleh online...
huhuhu...
neh pon bleh online sbb sbe...
cop2...
jgn slah phm...
aku x online kt skolah tau...
aku adalah bakal cekgu yg sgt baek...
aku kt starbucks...
so thanks to sbe...
disebabkan sbe aku dpt keta dgn kadar segera...
so aku suka...
bleh kuaq suka2...
and duet pon kuaq suka2...
tp suka2 pon bukan suka2 jugak...
erk...
apa aku merepek neh...
actually aku online neh sbb x tahan gila nk update blog...
huhuhu...
rasa cm byk gila bnda nk tulis kt dlm neh...
haih...
how to start...
sbe @ school based experience @ ros...
sgt menarik walaupon masa mula2 aku takot nk mati...
rasa nervous nk mampos...
padahal bukan mati pon...
huhuhu...
1st day kt skolah was fun...
and today is my second day...
tiresome!!!
waaaaa...
letih okey!!
kak madi 2nd day posting muntah2...
aku 2nd day sbe dh muntah2...
huhuhu...
penat dowh...
x larat btol...
sbb aku sekadar mengumpul maklumat ikot course preforma...
tp kawan2 group laen???
depa dpt masok kelas ganti cikgu...
dapat jaga exam...
tp aku????
tingin gak babe!!
nk jugak test power...
hehehehe...
watever it is,i did not regret choosing teaching as my profession...
sgtlah menarik ok...
dan aku sronok tgk budak2 kecik senyum kt aku...
hehehe...
even nama skolah Sek Keb Bakar Arang,tp budak2 putih2 x mcm arang...
hahahahaha...
mengong!!
k lah...
aku berdoa semoga wifi mktb kembali pulih...
sbb abeh la duet aku kalo tiap2 kali nk online kena p kedai...
hostel bayaq skali wifi tau!!!!!!

harry potter and the half blood prince

2009-07-16T23:56:00.000-07:00

waa...
smlm dh tgk harry potter...
igtkan x ramai nk tgk...
rupanya ramai gak...
comments???
best...
tenang...
x byk konflik...
so lebih senang nk fhm cita...
ginny cpl ngan harry kot...
ron@won-won cpl ngan hermione...
and cita kali neh byk unsur2 komedi...
x byk lawan2...sikit ja...
and i wonder who RAB is...
remus is it??
and the half blood prince is actually prof snape...
huhuh...
dumbledore mati...
waaaaa...
iskk...
to those yg x tgk g sori la aku dh cita...
g la tgk...
to me it is fun...:p

i feel different

2009-07-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

just now i tried to log into VUW's portal...
and i managed to browse through the e-library...
at that moment i feel different...
i realized that i have a very big responsibility to be carried along...
i realized that my dream is almost a reality...
i realized that it is now not the time for me to fool around...
i realized that this is serious...
and i realized that i'm leaving my family and friends very soon...
huhuhu...

i'm excited to be part of the new zealand culture!!

rendah diri

2009-07-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

wut would u feel when u know that your love's ex is much prettier than u??
and u know the fact that your love once doubted to start a relationship with u???
and u know the fact that your love was once in a dilemma whether to choose u or his ex????
and now u know dat they keep in touch behind ur back?????
and the fact that he prohibited u from keeping in touch with ur ex and denied that he had been in touch with his ex??????

rasa rendah diri...
sbb dia cantik...
tinggi,slim,slender...
adorable,sweet,nice...
and me?
pendek,gemok,gelap...
x sweet,x nice...
huhuhu...
angah...i want you...
iskk...

weekend

2009-07-13T21:38:00.000-07:00

yaikss...
excited waiting for this thursday...
after almost 2 years staying in sp, this thirsday is my first time going to kl from sp...
sbb slm neh kalau nk g kl mak soh balik umah dulu...
hihihi...
and this thursday i'm going to watch harry potter...
sayang kakak aku...
dh booking tiket awal2...
hikhik...
syok2...
walaupun keja melambak2...
but i just x boleh nk tahan la feeling nk tgk movie...
hikhik...
tambah2 kalau x pyh guna duet sndri kan...
hahaha...
angah...wait for me!!!

azuliana n azuwiza

pics kot

2009-07-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

as promised...
here are some pics...
x byk pon...

11th July 2009,Saturday

tggu pizza kot...s xmpai2...

merenung receipt...10 mins g x smpai dpt voucher...

lunch time...mana sushi???

kasot idaman...tp mahai...huhu...

12th July 2009,Sunday

hihi...my nightie...

neh plak sluaq...comei kan...zati pon ada...

forgive me if i'm wild

2009-07-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

tajuk entry x bleh blah...
actually tadak apa pon...
saja ja nk cita activities weekend neh ngan today...
okay...
start with friday...

Friday, 10th of July 2009...

ari neh emotional breakdown...i dunno why...but suddenly satu feelings yg kurang enak singgah kt ati aku neh...ya auu...tension yg teramat sgt...huhu...at first nk g sunway ngan zati smua...
disebabkn oleh plan yg agak last minute tros x jd...huhuhu...i'm so sedey...then dpt plak msg member2 rapat skolah yg diorg balik...waaa...why didn't i go home???????huhu...dgn mata yg berair aku tgk2 skype...baca shoutout org...(bleh release tension kot)then aku skype fidah...fidah nk kuaq ngan soleh...p cs...nak ikott!!!!hehehe...aku kejot zati,tp dia tamau ikot...emotional breakdown gak...huhuhu...then apa lg...msg neda...neda on ja...nk beli beg kuliah baru katanya...so at 2.30 p.m. kami pon bertolak...nek teksi pakcik md noor...tq pakcik!!smpai kt cs fidah ckp dia lapaq...so disebabkan baru terbaca blog zack pasal cheezy chikaroni aku pon tingin nk mkn...mcm best...fidah n soleh pon order yg sama...neda ja yg p beli mcflurry...dh lunch katanya...after kenyang (mmg sedap pon...i like cheese!!) kami pon berangkat...soleh n fidah stop kt thai fair...memandangkan aku tau yg aku akan menghabiskan duet kalo stop kt situ,so aku pon ajak neda masuk the store...nk usha jeans...jeans ada 4,tp satu ja celuih...gemok kan aku???huhuhu...tp malang skali x dak yg bekenan...neda plak usha bag...bag kuliah dia tecabot zip...n she managed to buy a bag with 50% off...even after discount,still mahal...tp x pa...cantik n worth it...confirm tahan lama...jalan pnya jalan,last2 masok giordano...giordano tgh wat offer jeans...so aku pon beli la satu...n yg sedey size dh bertambah...huhu...dr 26 dh jd 27...malunya...huhu...after dh merayau2 kt cs,aku ended up beli jeans,buku tajuk aisyah (tingin nk jd baik ok),tudung,handsocks...huhu...even x dak duet,but i need all these stuffs...huhu...before balik sempat la p dinner kt old town coz i really want to eat chicken hor fun...then balik la mktb...letih ok...

Saturday,11th of July 2009...

smalam ronggeng ngan kawan2,ari nie aku kuaq ngan aku pnya sweetheart...huhuhu...sedey ok...terharu yg amat...disebabkan financial aku tgh x stabil disebabkan oleh personal probs (those who know only know,erk??),syamil ckp g penang fully support...huhuhu...terharu gila...baby i love you!!bertolak from maktab around 10 a.m...lama gila x kuaq jalan2...dkt 6 minggu kot...huhu...smpai penang dlm kol 11...breakfast kt mcd seberang jaya...around 11.50 baru bertolak ke pulau...first destination mesti arr queensbay kan...tp aku x expect pon tgh sale menggila...huhuhu...dup dap dup dap jantung aku...mak aiii...boleh kata smua kdai tgh sale...tension gila...p queue kt gsc...panjang berjela...syamil nk tgk transformers,tp ada dua hall showing at the same time,dua2 full...dh bpa minggu dh...haish...so we ended up watching drag me to hell...aku x suka cita tue...wat jantong aku tekejot ja...huhu...before tgk movie tue ada dlm sejam lebey sbb movie start 2.20p.m...so aku pon jln2 ngan syamil...skali lg aku mengamok...knapa?sbb x bleh shopping...huhuhuhu...trok btol ok...so utk coolkan aku syamil ajak mkn ice cream...huhu...kebetulan plak haagen daaz tgh wat promotion...beli 2 scoops dpt free 2 scoops...so dgn bestnya mkn ice cream...aku pnya combination x snonoh...belgian choc mixed ngan apricot...hahahaha...syamil pnya aku x igt...tp both chocs...yg x tahannya bleh plak dia mkn smpai abeh...x offer kt aku pon...bertuah pnya bf...huhuhu...after tgk movie kami tawaf qb...jln2...then syamil ckp nk beli apa2 x...aku ckp tingin nk beli cardigan...so off we go...cari cardigan...disbbkn tgh sales dpt la aku satu dgn harga rm29...happynya...jalan lagi...masok kdai ladylike...then syamil ckp beli la baju lengan panjang...aku x sure nk ke x...then dia ckp kalau nk amik ja...huhuhu...aku pon ended up dpt satu baju...kaler kuning (aku x pnh ada baju kaler kuning)...happy lg...heheh...masa tgh tron escalator aku nmpk ada sale bantal2 n cadar smua...so aku pon beli la bantal baru (hobby:kumpul bantal...x caya tnya org yg pnh msok blk aku)...i bought one for zati...hehehe...then of course la lapaq...lunch...venue:sushi king...syamil pnya first time...and as expected,dia x suka...hihihi...tp aku suka...ahaks...so aku yg mkn byk...before balik sempat singgah al-ikhsan...waaaaa....kt sini la jmpa kasot idaman aku...mahal...rm229...mana mampu...setakat mampu snap pics ja...uhuk2...sedey...tp still dpt something...syamil beli 3 quarter nk pkai maen bola,so aku pon automatic dpt satu...hehehe...sayang abg!!:p...then dlm 6p.m. kami pon meredah kesibukan jalan raya balik ke tanah besaq...sempat singgah sunway...tp bkn dok dlm sunway...parking ja...tp p makan kt domino's...erk...makan lg kan??????hahahaha...n yg plg terharu utk ari neh...masa on the way awal2 pg tue, aku sibuk letak2 beg n kasut kt tmpt duduk blkg...masa aku tgh amik sweater syamil,ada smthg mcm kotak...i asked him "apa dia bwh sweater neh?"...dia ckp kotak...angkat la...after angkat,aku senyum...it was a present from him...dpt handbag converse...yeay!!!of course la handbag tue yg aku guna masa jalan2 kan...matching ok ngan baju...hahahaha...

Sunday,12th July 2009...

hahah...actually ari neh dh start kuliah...started at 8 we had a lecture on Islamic Asian Civilization, at 9 we had a lecture on Classroom Management, then at 10 we had break...at 11 we had a two hours lecture on English Language Teaching Methodology...then we were told that we were to have an hour lecture on Classroom Management from 3 to 4...Dr Newton will be observing...before that, from 2 to 3 my class had our tutorial...so, since that we're on "mc", Zati and i chose not to go back to the hostel for just only an hour...we wandered in the koperasi when i said to zati "zati,after klas satg kuaq nk?nk mkn kek"...then she said "kuaq la nak?"...and we smiled at each other...hahaha...apa lg...sewa keta koop...sejam sudah...syamil yg kebetulan ada kt situ pon follow...joe tamau...so off we go...cs la destination...mana lg...tue yg plg dekat...dgn beruniformkn baju batik maktab,kami pon ronda2...hahaha...syamil p beli mcvalue lunch...aku n zati p beli kek kt secret recipe...and we managed to get back to maktab before 2...hahaha...best!!and just now...i just had my bath n so did zati...she told me that she wanted to go to the "kedai mkn" nk beli teh o ais...her favourite leisure time activity is makan ais ketul...huhuhu...then i said "jom kuaq"...hahaha...n again we did crazy stuff...sewa keta koop for an hour...p cs...i thought of buying polisterine nk wat notice board...smpai cs popular dh nk ttp...huhu...naek kt the store, tadak la pulak polisterine...huhuhu...the i asked zati "p tesco mau?"...n of course la she agreed...hahaha...sma2 sewel...smpai kt tesco, zati p withdraw duet...aku masok dulu...nk cari polisterine neh...tp malangnya aku slh lintas department...aku lalu kt bahagian clothings...hahaha...aku jmpa baju tidoq...comelnya...rm12...mcm ok ja...beli la...aku amik satu...baru lintas x smpai satu rack,aku jmpa sluaq tidoq plak...alah...cute...err...rm12...then zati pon smpai...zati:waaa...comelnya...nak2...so both of us amik sluaq yg sama...hahaha...jalan p cari polisterine...rupa2nya kt tesco pon tadak...hahaha...kuaq nk beli bnda len...tp bnda len yg dibeli...and we managed to buy big gulp...:P masa blk,zati drive...fyi,dia dh lama x drive keta manual...bak kata zati,"dh lama x drive keta manual kecik"...n guess wut...smpai kt traffic light be4 tmn ria jaya,zati nk overtake keta from left...and mmg dkt gila...dia mcm tamau break ok...and i ended up screaming "aaaa...miss!!miss!!"...gedik gila jerit...tp spontan...nk wat cmna...huhuhu...around 10.30 baru smpai mktb...with laughters ok!!

so...forgive me if i'm wild...hahahah...

p/s : actually nk upload pics...tp mcm lembab ja...esok je lah...hehehe...

love you

2009-07-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

I'm going to try to speak the words
that my heart wants you to know
I want you to see what you mean to me
and why I love you so.

Nobody else can know my thoughts
and touch my soul like you can
No one can melt my heart like you do
simply by holding my hand.

I need nothing more from you than this-
to know that you'll always be mine
And the promise of your love in my life-
until the end of time.

Today is the perfect time to tell you
what you mean to me.
How I depend on you to love me
for who I am and believe in me
for what I hope to be.

How I feel loved each time you smile
or touch my hand and,
when I need someone to listen,
I know you'll understand.

So Ahmad Syamil Abdul Rahim,
I celebrate my love for you,
grateful that we have the happiness
life gives to just a few.

scribbled by azu....

sombong sgt ke

2009-07-08T03:32:00.000-07:00

huhu...
haza tagged me in her note kt fb...
and i found that it was interesting...
i have to tag people in the note...
the note consists of 15 questions about me...
hahaha...
and i tagged some of my friends...
and i was surprised since most of them answered question no 4 with almost the same answer...
jom tgk...
huhuhu...

To anyone who's damn free, or feeling bored.Don't bother about the tag. Try this !

It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
Leave some memories that you and I had together.

Don't send a message, leave a comment in HERE.

1. How long have you known me?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
8. When's the last time you saw me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. How well do you know me?
11. What's my favorite music?
12. What is the most memorable event spent with me, you can never forget?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. What is my best attribute?
15. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?

and neh plak jawapan kwn2 aku ikot turutan...

- syafiq

1. since secondary school
2. yup
3. 1st meet, form 1, 1st talk, form4..huhu
4. cute??
5. yup... Read More
6. adorable
7. azu, used to call you that
8. if i not wrong, raya in 2007
9. form 5
10. dunno...a little about ur family, about u like/dislike
11. english song??
12. 6/12/2006, time kuar sambut bufday haziq
13. yup
14. friendly.=)
15. yup..haha

- zati

1. since first day i saw u in mktb.
2. yepi.
3. tym ldv,i enterd ur class sbub kna combine.
4. belagak.haha.xpandang kami pon.hu.hehe.
5. nope.damn ur nice. *wink wink*... Read More
6. baek dlm segala.
7. azoo o aju.rs kiut miut nm2 tesebot.haha.
8. tadi.at 6 before u went out.hehe.
9. dominos.haha.
10. sket2 kot,met ur parents,met ur sis,met pia.
11. savage garden - truly,madly,deeply. *wink*
12. time dlm clas.d mana gstk berleluasa.haha-merdeka 2008-
13. nope.
14. loving me.haha. *wink wink*
15. definitely bebeh!

- naia

1.dlm bape2 hari pas msuk mktb.haha..
2.teman tp mesra.
3.when, x igt la..haha.. tp how, sbb msuk mktb sme la..
4.sme mcm zati kot.hek~jgn mare..
5.xpulak.rupe2nye ok je..tp suke kne kn org, 2 la kamu...hehe... Read More
6.montel..:)
7. liana..nmpk lembut.hehe
8.la.. br pg td kot kt klas.haha
9.susu.. azu mnum susu smpi drjh 3 kn?haha..
10.x la well sgt kot, as classmate, n kwn utk gelak sme2.hehe..
11.ape ek azu? azu ske lgu yg nk wat org tdo kn.. sbb ske tuls poem kot.hii~
12.azu x nk kne calit kek ms besday tina, berusaha lr, last2 kne gak.haha..
13.still couldn't.hehe..
14.graduate attributes? hehehe..
15.nk gak! nk gak!

- che kudd

1.hampir 8 thun :)
2.friends forever
3.ms form 1 tp xrpt sgt.
4.comel tp cm sombong jaa. *sorry azu :B
5.x dahh.jap ja rs camtu bl start knl lm2.hihi... Read More
6.sweet... *serius rs azu sweet sgt
7.azu sbb azu bhsa kan diri "azu" :) n dulu azu pgil kami2 pon
dgn nm kami2 kan.hihii.
8.dh lm sgttttttt.rs nya lps balik plkn.tido umah nazreen n singgap umah azu.ingt x? *klau xingt,sedih nyaa :((
9.teacher wannabe :)
10.xtau rahsia azu :D
11.xsilap dulu azu suka A1.skg xtau sbb xdekat dgn azu dh.klau silap jgn mrh azu.hukk.
12.haaa mkn dkt pizza sbb bisnes kad raya kita bejaya.kihkih
13.klau boleh nk jd kan bestie mcm org lain,gurau2 cam org lain,share mcm2,tau sikit2 bnda y important pasal azu.tu lah.hihi. :) eh,kna explain ka?hihi.org lain x pon.ngaaa terover.
14.soft spoken tp kdg2 garangggg.
15.boleh jgk tp cam cuak ja.muhahaha

- kak belle

1. nearly 8 years.
2. sisters? ;)
3. 2002, syed putra, senior-junior meet.
4. sombong? :p
5. sooo not true! :D... Read More
6. manja!
7. nickname azu je bley?sgt sesuai dgn kamu. :)
8. last year,pavilion.
9. ur seductive smile.hehe!
10. erk?
11. hav no idea.hee.
12. when we were gossipping~
13. no at d moment.
14. sgt baek hati.
15. yesssss!

waaa....mostly ckp aku sombong...hukhuk...first impression trok neh...sombong ke saya???waaaaaa...

saya rindu kamu

2009-07-06T21:15:00.000-07:00

Angel
I have a dream of you I can’t defy
You’ve been on my mind
Don’t go
I’d be lost without you by my side
Lost and on my own
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel
Angel
Your brightest star is shining next to mine
Every night and day
Do you know?
Stars explode and then they fade away
Then they fade away
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel
Won’t you please be my baby?
Come by and I’ll lay you down
I want you and I’m saying I love you too
Won’t you please be my honey?
I’m so sorry that I let you down
Your eyes are breaking my heart in two
Break my heart in two
Angel
May the one above us keep you safe
For the rest of days
If he knows
How I love the smile upon your face
He’d guide you here to stay
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel

hukhuk...
tgh melayan perasaan...
tgh menahan kesakitan kt perut yg amat sgt...
tgh menunggu pengertian...
hukhuk...
nk nanges...

tiredness

2009-07-06T05:11:00.000-07:00

zati used to say this to me...

"a man's love is not as great as a woman's love"

i wondered whether it's true or not...
lately i felt tired...
tired of loving him...
tired of missing him...
tired of trying to change for him...
tired of pleasing him...
tired of thinking for his feelings...
i'm tired...
just tired...
because i know he doesn't know how deep is my love for him...
he doesn't know that each time i woke up i think of him...
he doesn't know wherever i go,whatever i do i always think of him...
he just doesn't know...
huhuhu...
help me...
i'm tired...

sudden feelings

2009-06-30T01:23:00.002-07:00

all this while i always think that i'm happy with my life...i feel that everything that happened in my life was just so perfect...it's like too good to be true...but suddenly i had this feeling...a feeling that i don't really know how to describe...these few days i had been surfing the net...and i found most of my friends that i last contact was like years ago...it occurred to me that i am a loser...a big fat LOSER!!!huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu....dowh...tamau dh tulis...benci!!!!jiwa kacau ok...bodoh...gila...bangang...mcm s***...urghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

nak kawen

2009-06-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

hehehe...aku cilok benda neh kt dlm fb...syok plak...ahaks...before aku nk jawab,aku nk tag org2 yg berikot:

1) att
2) tina
3) zack
4) ada
5) farah
6) wanie
7) wan z

My Wedding PLan??

1. How old are you?
I'm 19.. :)

2. Are you single?
I'm single but not available

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
okay2...kalo pk2 mebi 26 kot...amiin...

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
insyaallah...kalau ada jodoh...amiin....

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
erk...mak ayah tolong pilih la...

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man?
err....banyak la....nazreen,att,iqa,zati,farah,wanie,tina,aisyah....kalo bleh satu cohort...bleh???

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
a mix of all three???

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
hahahaha...cabo,mexico!!!yeah!!

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
depends... :P

10. Will that include your exes?
absolutely!!

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
erm...x pyh la tingkat2....wat pyh ja...

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
evening i guess.... :)

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
yg neh kena tnya paksu...dia yg jd DJ...

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon,fork and knife?
alah....suka ati la mcm mana pon....freedom...

15. Champagne or red wine?
sirap kot...hihi...

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
ala...lepas kawen kena mlwt sedara mara...lepas tue la baru honeymoon...huhu...

17. Money or household items?
erk...both...

18. How many kids would you like to have?
four i guess...pairs...

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
record la...sweet kan.... :)

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
haaaaa....budak2 cohort la...:P

dark clouds

2009-06-26T04:01:00.000-07:00

hurm...i woke up this morning...i saw her dressing up...i wondered where she's going...she said nothing...not even a word...maybe she didn't realized that i was already awake...i looked to my side...zati was still sleeping...i closed my eyes...and i can still hear noises...she was preparing herself...picking up a box...i asked her...then she said she's going to her new house to tidy up things...owh...she's moving out...yeah...i knew...she told me before the holidays...but i was still hoping...hoping that she'll change her mind...but this morning...it had changed everything...the moment she walked out of our room there was tears in my eyes...i feel lost...those who are very dear to walked away from me one by one...i feel abondened...why must she moves out??? why must she??? does she hate me??? why had i done wrong??? all this time she was the one i talk to whener i'm happy or sad...what ever happened to me,i'll tell her...she's like a sister to me...she didn't say much when i cried...she didn't say much when i smiled...she didn't say much when i screamed angrily...she is just the way she is...the first day she became my colleague we talked a lot...exchanged details about ourselves...about our interests...we were in the same class at that time...we attended lectures and tutorials together...even my very own boyfriend is close to her...forget bout him...it's bout me...we went through good and bad times together...what touches me the most is that we used to have a very big and serious conflict...only the two of us and a few other people knew bout it...and guess what??? we settled it ourselves...no interference from other parties...from that moment,i realized that no matter what happened, we are still going to be close to each other...we shared more and more things and stuffs...until the very end of last semester...things started to change...the administration asked us to move out and rent our own house...things started to get complicated...then we were allowed to write letters to appeal so that we can stay at the hostel...and now...this thing that made me cry is she's moving out and i'm staying...she is the one who knows my good and my bad...i just can't control my emotion...i felt very close to her...but i never mentioned it to her...and now i'm letting her know if that is the reason why she's moving out...i just need her by my side...and now that she's moving and leaving me i feel all alone...what a pathetic person i am...but i don't care...i just want her to know that no one can ever replace her...and she made me realized bout lots of stuffs...i love her...and i will always will...we seldom talk bou this or maybe never...but i really want her to know that she is very precious in my life...i just never show it...nobody will ever understand what i'm going through right now...but i feel like i'm losing her...losing her to others that had long left me...hmmhh...i'm being emotional...there's only one whole semester left i hope...and i have to be tough this sem...and i'm going to be alone...just me and my cozy room...to 'she'...i hope you'll always remember me...things between us are not going to be the same again i guess...hmmhhh....

gone with the wind??

2009-06-19T08:07:00.000-07:00

i don't know what is actually happening to me...but lately i've been thinking a lot...why??? because spending like almost 3 weeks at home by my parents' sides,i've been doing observations...observations on people's attitudes...i know i shouldn't be doing this,but i can't help myself...one time when i was doing some shopping with my mom while my sis was at the saloon,we met my aunty with her two daughters...the eldest is 2 years older than me while the youngest is the same age with me...i greeted my aunty since my uncle is very close to my mom...her youngest daughter used to be my friend when i was in smkd...but what took me by surprised was that the two i shall say grown up ladies didn't even smile or look at my mom...if they didn't want to look at me,nevermind and i didn't even give a shit about it...but this is my mom...their very own aunty...an adult whom you can call 'mak'...how rude they are...i was shocked...and i really pitied my aunty...she looked so embarrased with her own daughters...that was one incident...then there was another incident while my parents and i went to a wedding ceremony...my dad ate at the gents' side while my mom and me ate at the ladies' side...since it was already like 3.00p.m something,there were just a few guests left...and none that we knew...while i was eating with my mom,came 2 young ladies...older a bit than me i guess...my mom and i smiled since they sat in front of us...and guess what???they didn't even look at us...oh my god...what happened to the young generation???where do the politenesses and sweetnesses go???are they gone with the wind???to those who read this,what do you think???hmmm...

macam tue pon bleh

2009-06-14T18:49:00.001-07:00

hah...cuti tggl seminggu ja lg...after dh 2 minggu aku berholiday,baru tercuit hati aku neh...2 mggu holiday...mcm2 aku wat...hahah...holiday ngan kwn2...holiday ngan fam...mcm2 experience la yg ada...plg best experience 1st week hols...aku pnya maid cuti seminggu...hahahaha...apa lg...bermula la duty yg tergendala satu sem...ahaks...duty wajib aku tiap2 kali cuti sem...aku la pulak jadik bibik indon kt umah sendiri...huhuhu...bak kata abg aku "bibik muda dr sp"...bengong...tp x pa...x dpt upah pon x kesah...sbb niat aku ikhlas kt ati nk tlg bonda tercinta...almost 20 years she raised me up x pnah bersungut pon...takkan sekali skala cuti tlg mak pon aku nk merungut kan...lgpon kalo ditakdirkan btol aku dpt g nz,dh x bleh tlg mak lg kan...huhuhu...ok2...tue kesah cuti...malas nk kongsi pnjg2...sbb smua org ada cita msg2 kan...cuti aku x dak apa yg specialnya...standard la kan g jln2...bila lg... :)

now...back to what i wanted to say...dh tggl seminggu baru tercuit ati aku yg satu neh haa...neh smua sbb sepanjang cuti neh aku baca paper...berazam nk jd cikgu yg serba tahu...so aku pon ubah sikap yg tamau amik tau neh kpd nk amik tau...start ngan baca paper...baca kesah2 yg jd kt negara kita yg satu neh plus ngan news yg aku rasa menarik yg jd kt overseas (tolak kisah artis...tue zaman skolah)...then aku terbaca news kematian sorg pelajar malaysia yg menuntut kt mesir...kebetulan plak student tue budak MATRI...skolah agama yg dkt ngan umah aku...and arwah pulak adalah kwn kpd kwn lama aku...and malamnya pulak kwn aku mengesahkan yg tue mmg btol kwn dia...tersirap darah aku...rasa panas muka ngan mata aku...x pasal2 ada air mata dh bertakung kt mata aku...automatik tros arwah sahabat dr aku umur 5 taon muncul kt mata aku...dh almost stengah taon dia pergi...Ya Allah,Ya Rabbi...dlm masa terdekat neh byk berita pasal anak2 muda sebaya aku dh pergi buat selamanya...besar sungguh kuasa Yang Esa...satu petang tue aku ddk temenung kt tepi tingkap dlm bilik aku...x sure apa yg ada dlm kepala otak aku neh...mak aku masuk blk..."adk,dh smayang blom?"..."blom lg mak"..."smayang la dulu...dh pukul 6...x elok lambat2kn smayang...satg mak ngan ayah nk p masjid"...aku hanya mengangguk...then aku bgn msok toilet...masa tgh bersih2kn diri aku teringat ari sabtu baru lepas aku teman mak p nat (pasar)...mak aku ajak beli tdg (mcm tdg sarimah...tp kan ada mcm2 style)...tgh mak aku belek2 tdg,aku bekenan plak kt satu tdg neh...aku neh x pnah pon teringin nk pkai tdg mcm tdg sarimah tue...tp tatau saipa pg tue aku nak sgt beli tdg tue...aku beli kaler itam sma ngan tdg mak aku...cuma pattern ja laen...aku tros amik wuduk...aku usaikan tanggungjawab aku pada Yang Esa...abeh smayang,aku temenung lg kt atas sejadah...tba2 terdetik kt ati aku...aku nk ikut mak ayah p masjid..."mak,adk nk ikut sama la p masjib satg"...mak aku senyum meleret...dh lama sbenaqnya mak aku dok ajak aku p masjid...mak kata org perempuan kdg2 ada mak aku sorg ja...gerun jugak katanya...masa klt dlm masjid, aku rasa laen...ada satu perasaan nk sgt dkt dgnNya...aku rasa aku nk berubah...moga Allah tetapkan iman aku...tetapkan pendirian ku...kwn2 yg knal aku secara rapat akan tahu apa yg aku mau...org laen yg tgk yg x knal aku,mungkin akan mencebik...tp biarlah...hanya aku yg tau apa yg aku nak...byk bnda yg aku nk ubah...tp aku prlu masa...biar aku tetapkan iman aku dulu,baru ku ubah yg laen satu persatu...Ya Allah,Ya Rabbi,kau bantulah hambaMu ini...amiin...

holiday

2009-06-13T08:31:00.000-07:00

waahhh...it had been a very long time since i last posted my entry...hahaha...i had spent the whole two weeks from three weeks of holiday enjoying my holiday...hahaha...ntah btol ke x ayat aku neh...tgh bersedia nk menghadapi sem baru...hikhik...walaupon last entry aku berbau sedih plus takot...tp smua tue dh lepas...alhamdulillah...aku lepas exam...tp kesian some of my friends yg kecundang...tp x bermakna korg kecundang tros kan???korg smua tough ok...mesti boleh punya...aku sentiasa mendoakan kejayaan kita smua...amiin...tinggal lagi satu sem ja lg wahai tesolian cohort 1...then our dream will come true...insyaallah...haih...ok2...syok plak aku tgk blog aku...dh jmpa balik member2 skolah lama...best2...nanti aku update blog...aku ltk chatbox ehh...aku x abeh study g cmna nk organize blog neh...aku mmh lembab sket kalo bab ict neh...hihihi...ok lahh...got to go...nk msg ngan p0p0... :)

* nanti aku update pasal aktiviti aku cuti neh...even ampa tamau tau,aku ttp nk gtau...ahaks....

hokey!!

2009-05-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

okeh...dh lama aku x post entry baru kan...huhuhu...sbb aku tgh menstabilkan emosi aku...smua neh gara2 final exam ari tue...huhuhu...selama neh aku x pnah la nk isau sgt pasal exam...tp kali neh aku btol2 isau...sbb aku nk p nz...huhuhu...actually...cita dia cmneh...first paper aku linguistics...18th may...aku happy and excited nk jawab paper tue...sbb 18th may neh hari best utk aku n p0p0...and the afternoon before 18th may aku dpt confident dr miss sim regarding linguistics paper...time exam...aku selak page by page...mcm farah ckp...byk gila soalan...tp aku manage to answer all the questions...and bila abeh paper aku nmpk smua kwn2 aku tersenyum happy kt kafe...syukur la mcm tue...second paper aku paper philosophy...mak ai...soalan dia sket ja pon...mmg btol2 sket...beza gila ngan linguistics...tp markah pon sikit...aku pon jawab la smua soalan berbekalkan smua fakta yg aku dh baca n hafal...agak gumbira la menjawab paper neh...tp aku takot...sbb aku x confident ngan cara markah diagihkan utk setiap soalan...huhuhu...tp apa nk wat...dh jwb kan...so balik ptg tue...aku ngan roomate and jiran seblah bilik aku (farah n wanie) struggle study hd...stay up...i memorized all the theories...from robert havinghurst to jean piaget to lev vygotsky to erik erikson to lawrence kohlberg to carl jung...smua aku hafal...aku igt satu2 apa yg ada dlm tiap2 theory...aku hafal smua symptom2 budak special needs...adhd,autism,down syndrome...smua aku hafal...so pg 20th may aku ngan roomate aku a.k.a att pon berjalan dgn senyuman...muka msg2 mcm confident...tp dlm hati aku...waaaa...aku takot..aku x bleh nk expect bentuk soalan untuk paper neh...human development...huhuhu...dpt ja paper...aku tros bukak...baca satu2 soalan...smua ada 3 soalan...just like apa yg mr tan ckp...tp...tiap2 soalan ada 3 soalan...n aku kna pilih 2 dr 3 means 6 dr 9...and it was 6 essays...dlm masa 2 jam...makai...huhuhu...pening aku tgk soalan...aku pon dgn konon2 expertnya analisis la soalan2 tue...aku baca case study 1...pastue 2...pastue 3...aish...cmna neh...pening2...lama la jugak...dkt 20 min aku dok baca soalan ja...aku tgk jam...x bleh jd neh...kna jwb gak...so aku pon jwb...try la kaitkan ngan theory yg aku rasa logik...aku jwb zone of proximal development ngan scaffolding...vygotsky tue...confident????hahahaha...tatau la nk kata...pastue aku tgk plak special needs pnya children...aku identify...sah ADHD...aku pon jwb...soalan second aku dh pening2...confuse...dlm klas ckp letak kt mainstream classroom...tp apsal soalan neh nk special needs...hmh..."dia nk student pk lebey2 kot"aku ckp sendirian...aku pin struggle jwb...ada lg 40 mins...ada dua essay x abeh g...cmna nie...aku tmbh speed menulis...tulisan ntah apa2...lg 5 min...tidak!!!ada lg satu perenggan...aku dh la x reti tulis laju2...ishhh...pengawas exam dh sibuk soh check...ikat ketas jawapan...tp aku???iskkk...x pa...redha...aku tulis ayat last...aku ikat ketas jawapan elok2...jantung dh laju...zapp!!ketas aku pon dikutip...roomate aku pusing kt aku...sesi diskusi bermula...one by one...and smpai la kt soalan yg aku confuse td...zapp!!lg sekali...tidak!!!aku slh baca soalan...waaaaaaa...menitik tros ayaq mata aku...20 markah ok!!!betapa bodohnya azuliana!!!huhuhu...after dpr arahan kuar dwn...aku tros bgn...tina pggl aku pon aku dh x pduli dh...aku bgn amik hp...jln tros g kt hujung floor exam...aku ddk kt atas tangga...kal mak aku...mak x agkt...tros aku kal abg aku..."abg..."...aku dh teresak2..."pasaipa kak cik?"...aku diam...just dengaq aku nanges ja..."kak cik?haih...pasaipa nie?"..."baru abeh exam..."aku nanges lg..."pasaipa?"..."kak cik slh jwb soalan...20 markah"...tros aku dh nanges kuat2..."haih...jgn la teriak...dh jawab kan...tawakkal la..."...huhuhu...aku nanges x benti...x pnah aku salah baca soalan...tension gila...aku takot kena repeat...abg aku ckp kalo kna repeat,balik mktb repeat je la...nk wat cmna...tp...kalau x dpt g nz cmna??????waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

revelation

2009-05-20T18:23:00.000-07:00

sempena dh abeh exam neh...
aku pon nk wat la satu revelation...
revelation pasal...
silliemptime.blogspot.com
hokey...
to smua yg agak keliru...
neh aku la...
azu... :p
details :

nama : Azuliana binti Darus
status : In a relationship (p0p0)
occupation : Pelajar COHORT 1 B. ED TESOL (VUW) IPSAH

aku delete blog yg dulu...
sbb rasa x best...
and rasa cm tamau blogging...
tp tiba2 je aku dh ubah keputusan...
so aku pon wat la blog baru...
hihihi...
to kema...
sori ehh...
daha pon sama...
hikhik...
to kema...
zack tau...
tp saja sama2 tamau gtau...
walaupon aku sendiri terkantoikan diri kan...
hikhik...
jgn mrh ea kema...
aku lawak2 ja...
hihihi...
so...
diz is me...
i'm back to the world of blogging...

-hihihi..aku pon cam freak gak tau-

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make it through the rain

2009-05-18T21:04:00.000-07:00

wahh...
exam dh nk abes...
sepanjang exam neh aku trust ngan satu lagu fav aku...
lagu lama dh...
by mariah carey...
fav singer tue...
hokeh...
baca dulu lyric dia ok...

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep cryin out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away that you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's ok, won't you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it
through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly and
you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it
through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And I can make it through the rain and stand up once again
And I live one more day and I, I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can,
You're gonna make it through the rain

hokey...
korg yg baca post aku neh pon mesti ada something yg boost spirit korg kan...
bg aku lirik lagu neh la...
mmg everytime aku frust ka...
hurt ka...
moral down ka...
mmg aku akan dengaq lagu neh...
bg aku lagu neh btol2 wat aku rise up...
contohnya mcm nk exam neh...
aku agak moral down...
sbb ada certain concepts yg aku still x bleh nk catch up...
so aku pon dengaq la lagu neh...
huhu...
apa la agaknya cara org len eh..???

mmg aku marah gila

2009-05-18T03:34:00.000-07:00

ok...
cita dia mcm neh...
memandangkan aku ngan kwn2 aku masak je kt bilik...
semestinya la kna beli brg2 nk masak kan...
kebetulan plak brg2 smua dh habes...
aku pon mnx tlg la ngan kwn aku yg sorg neh...
mnx dia g beli brg...
tp dia ckp jauh nk g supermarket...
plus ngan facts dia tadak tujuan pon nk g...
ok la...
aku pon bersetuju la...
then aku ckp la nk pnjm moto nk p beli sndri...
then tau x dia ckp apa kt aku?????
dia ckp "mcm bohsia la naek moto"...
waaahhhhh...
panasnya hati...
pastue aku ckp la...
bukannya nk p wat apa pon...
nk p beli brg nk mkn ja pon...
then dia ckp lg...
"mau ka org laki tgk kacau2?"...
perghhh...
menyirap darah aku kt muka ok!!!!!
bukannya aku nk naek moto pakai ketat2...
naek moto dok tonggek2...
harap maaf...
aku p nk beli brg ja pon...
aku bleh control lg...
then aku ckp la...
kalo cmtue tlg la bwk aku g beli brg...
then dia ckp...
"x de masa la..nk maen bola..nk study"...
masa nie...
mmg dh berasap kepala aku...
aku mmg marah tahap jebon tua...
aku x tipu...
balik bilik aku dh nanges2...
kesian roomate ngan classmate aku...
huhuhu...
x sangka...
aku mrh2 classmate roomate aku sbb x open minded...
x sangka plak org yg plg rapat ngan aku pon mcm tue...
haish...

*kalau kamu ada baca blog neh...sy mrh sgt kt kamu ok...

dulu2

2009-05-16T08:26:00.001-07:00

tiba2 teringat...
dulu masa skolah menengah...
aku neh student yg sgt nakal...
skolah dulu aku dok kt asrama...
sbb asrama penuh...
huhuhu...
aku rebel masa mula2 masuk...
sbb dh 3 bulan aku dok kt skolah harian...
tiba2 kna pindah skolah...
huhuhu...
x bestnya...
reason=kena tinggalkn abg2 angkat... :p
(p0p0 jgn mrh)
bila dh msok sbp tue, mcm2 bnda aku wat...
dgn harapan mak ayah aku soh pndh balik skolah lama...
tp diorg wat dek ja...
tension aku...
start dr aku form one...
aku dh slalu ponteng klas...
especially kelas bahasa jepun...
hahaha...
relax ja aku lepak kt dorm...
tp x pnah kantoi sbb masa tue aku slalu wat2 kna attack astham aka lelah...
hihihi...
anak nurse kan...
stock ubat melambak...
ahaks...
after dlm sebulan kot...
aku dpt abg agkt...
bertambah nakal la aku...
x dak senior pon yg pernah berjaya torture aku...
sbb aku slalu escape...
ahahah...
plg best time malam merdeka '02...
form one smua kna torture...
tp time diorg kna torture...
one of senior form 5 boys call kakak angkat aku...
dia nk ckp ngan aku...
so berjaya la aku escape torture tue...
hihihi...
cuma kna sound sket ja time nk blah dr dorm diorg...
"dik,muka dh comel...tp kalau senyum lg comel"
kahkahkah...
muka aku dh mmg garang...
nk wat cmna kan...
tp memandangkan akak tue ckp dgn baek...
so aku x kesah...
aku took under consideration la...
hihihi...
masa form two pon aku nakal...
ponteng kelas bnda biasa...
kantoi handphone pon slalu...
smpai ayah aku mls nk g jmpa waden dh...
ada satu hp aku disedekahkan kt HEM...
hehehe...
time form 3 dh pndai tnjuk belang...
dh pndai fly secara open...
smpai lah terkantoi time fly g sure heboh...
time p ngan mak kwn aku...
time balik???
keta waden...
ahaks...
tp slmt la waden tue sporting...
kantoi hp bunyi dlm keta...
dia wat dek ja...
dia just ckp pndai2 la kamu jwb ngan PK HEM...
smpai kt guard post aku dh nampak muka ayahanda Yazid tercinta...
perghhh!!!
garang cm bapak singa...
aku wat muka dek aku...
smpai kt depan tue...
mmg best punya kna tengking...
malu seyh...
siap kna bntai ngan payung lg...
kesian kwn aku...
aku x kna pon...
hihihi...
plg best time awal taon f4 ...
aku mengamuk kt hostel...
sbb waden kunci gate time tgh hari...
ops...
lupa nk gtau...
skolah aku start kol 7.30 n abeh kol 4.15...
rehat jap tgh hari...
aku mmg slalu tggl buku subjek ptg kt dorm...
then after lunch hari tue aku balik tgk gate kunci...
wahhh...
mmg panas la ati aku...
ptg dh la ada bio...
mau mengamuk datin noridah...
so aku ngan 2 3 org kwn aku nekad...
panjat bumbung pejalan kaki yg sambung blok hostel ngan toilet n washing room...
gumbiranya aku...
dpt mandi...
dpt amik buku...
tp...
hahaha...
rupa2nya ayahanda Yazid tercinta tgh skodeng dr blok budak laki...
kahkahkah...
kantoi lg...
apa lg...
kami berempat kalo x salah aku dihadapkan ke mahkamah pelajar...
hukumannya???
sepatotnya kna gantung skolah...
tp dh kami pompuan...
so kna gantung outing selama sebulan...
huhuhu...
parah!!
aku dh la outing balik umah...
huhuhu...
yg paling bestnya...
ayahanda yazid neh cikgu Fizik aku...
tiap2 kali klas Fizik, aku kna dok dpn dia...
nama manja aku kt dia...
"anak nakal saya"...
kahkahkah...
aku igt episod2 kantoi aku smpai f4 ja...
tp time f5 kantoi g...
kantoi dating ngan bf aku kt tepi hall...
(bf=dh ex ok)
hahaha...
masa tue ex aku budak skolah laen...
kantoi...
dia pggl aku ngan ex aku p jmpa dia...
x bleh blahnya dia amik kunci moto...
kahkahkah...
tros dia kal ayah aku...
ayah aku dh la mmg on d way nk p jmpa aku pon...
aku dh agak gabra...
sbb ayah aku garang gak...
tp nasib baek...
ayah aku wat muka cool...
mak aku dh jeling2...
kna khutbah jap...
then ex aku mnx maaf kt parents aku n tros blah...
masa tue aku jmpa dia sbb nk bg ketas trial spm...
so parents aku pon x kesah...
cuma ayahanda Yazid terlampau syg kt aku...
hihihi...
memandangkan aku bakal guru...
aku cuak seyh dpt anak murid mcm aku nanti...
x pon lg nakal...
mesti pening!!
by the way...
post aku dh mmg panjang thp cipan...
dun worry...
aku x tuleh dh panjang2...
cuma teringat sbb hari guru kan...
k lah...
papai~~~

beautifool

2009-05-16T07:33:00.000-07:00

haaa...
blog neh aku tujukan khas utk cik kema...
hihihi...
cik kema...
ye...
saya budak mktb jugak...
hiiiii...
kedai kek neh nama dia choffles...
pic yg kt tepi tue pic kek tunang kwn kakak saya...
kek tunang kakak saya kaler biru...
hihihi...
neh ada some pics saya amik dr laman web choffles tue...
yg laen cik kema tgk la sendiri eh...
www.choffles.com
choffles neh wat mcm2 kek...
mcm2 bentuk...
kek pon sedap...
kira berbaloi la ngan harga tue...
even aku sendri x stuju...
harga sebijik kek bleh beli beberapa baju dan kasut...
huhuhu...
tp bertunang n kawen sekali seumur idop kan...
x pe la...
hihihi...
awalnya nk kawen cik kema?????

ops..lambat plak

2009-05-16T02:51:00.001-07:00

"Happy Teacher's Day"

lmbt plak nk post...
hikhik...
terlampau absorb ngan study agaknya...
hokey...
nak wish selamat hari guru neh dkt org2 yg berikot...

1) My Daddy
2) My Sis-in-law
3) My Secondary School Teachers
- Cikgu Norma (bm + waden)
- Sensei Latifah (Japanese Lang. + geografi)
- Miss Kong (Sejarah + Mandarin)
- Cikgu Maznah (bm)
- Cikgu Azlina (maths)
- Mdm Wan Muzni (bi)
- Cikgu Zul (geografi + muzik)
- Uztaz Othman (agama la kan)
- Cikgu Rahim (maths)
- Miss Fariza (bi)
- Mdm Yang Hameza (bi)
- Sir Syerizal (bi + waden)
- Cikgu Anuar (seni)
- Cikgu Saiful (sej + waden)
- Cikgu Yazid (fizik + pk HEM)
- Datin Noridah (bio)
- Cikgu Yusniza (kimia)
- Cikgu Wan Jannatul Naimi (add maths)
- Cikgu Yaman (kimia)
- Cikgu Asniza (sej)
4) My Primary School Teachers
- Teacher Rashidah (bi)
- Mdm Marhamah (bi)
- Cikgu Paridah (maths)
- Cikgu Che Olah (bm)
- Cikgu Yasumi (muzik)
- Cikgu Sukasarani (tunas puteri)
5) Mak Long aku a.k.a cikgu tadika aku dulu
6) My Uncles & Aunties (abg g, mak cik mah, paksu mad)
7) My Cousins (Dik Maizan, Sue,Kak Miza,Kak Deni)
8) My Friends (banyak..x bleh nk tulis)
9) All Students of IPGM!!!

* cikgu sekolah menengah tue ada gak yg aku x igt nama..maafkan sy ye cikgu2...

** cikgu sekolah rendah lagi la byk...huhuhu...kena refresh balik minda...

***and lastly..nk wish Happy Teacher's Day kt lecturer2 kt matrix dulu n kt kolej skrg...

love u alll...
muahxxx...
mcm yg abg aku wat utk anak sedara aku...
"To all my teachers,thanks for being parts of my future"...

tiring

2009-05-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

hmh...
pg td igt nk bgn awal...
tp x jd pulak...
hahaha...
sbb smlm tertgk cite The Wedding Game...
a Singapore movie...
roomate aku la neh introduce movie tue kt aku...
hahaha...
best!!
ahaks...
back to cite aku...
aku bgn around 9.45...
tue pon sbb p0p0 kejutkan...
hikhik...
kalo x jgn hrp aku nk bgn ok!!
lepas dh mandi sume...
aku p0n g lah sesi tutorial...
ade la 4,5 org...
wat la sedikit discussion...
berisi la jugak minda aku pg td...
pastue dgn kelam kabotnye aku balik blk...
nape kelam kabot???
lapar...
hikhik...
dh beratus2 lagu perot aku nyanyi...
after dh mkn sume...
around 3.00 aku pon sambung balik sesi tutorial...
wahhh...
sesi tutorial ptg lebey berisi drpd pg...
hikhik...
suka2...
tau x knapa???
sbb aku x ready nk exam...
huhuhu...
jeles tgk kwn2 yg dh dekat2 nk abes exam...
huhuhu...
x pe...
x kesah...
aku mesti boleh!!!
haish...
neh baru je abeh tutorial...
tros aku update blog...
semangat...
ahaks...
ok lah...
nk g kemas2 diri...
mlm neh x confirm g ada tutorial ke x...
kalau ada mmg penat gila!!
tp x pe...
for the sake of my future!!
caiyok!!

to love or not to love

2009-05-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

hurm...
aku suke bace blog org...
tp aku x de idea sgt nk blogging nie...
salah satu blog fav aku nie nama die Insan Tinggi...
aku suke bace blog die...
mcm2 emotion ade...
and now aku jatuh cinta ngan lagu dlm blog die...
here's the lyric...
sedey!!!!

Cinta Jangan Kau Pergi
by Anggie

Ku sadari kesalahan ini
Yang membuat segalanya
Gelap jadinya
Oh Kasih ku
Ku harap kau mau
Memaafkan menerima pengakuan ku
Jangan kau diam lagi
Ku tak sanggup menahan
bicaralah kau sayang
Jiwa ini tak tenang
Cinta jangan kau pergi
Tinggalkan diriku sendiri
Cinta jangan kau lari
Apalah arti hidup ini
Tanpa cinta dan kasih sayang

cuba update minda anda

2009-05-14T01:25:00.000-07:00

haish...
pening btol...
x fhm pon ade gak...
ok la...
cmnie...
roomate aku pnah cite pasal sorg classmate die...
n classmate die neh laki2...
n bile roomate aku cite kt aku pasal budak neh...
mmg aku tekejot gaban...
aku x sgke ade gak lagi laki2 yg mcm tue...
huhuhu...
roomate aku neh minat dua bnda yg slalunya org laki la yg conquer...
bola sepak n guitar...
n mmg die work hard to be good at these two things...
tp x de la smpai die terror men bola...
hihihi...
die x de la turun pdg men bola kan...
hahaha...
tatau la kalau one day die bertindak extreme...
ahaks...
jgn mrh..
just kidding...
love u...
hehehe...
ok2...
sambung cite td...
bila si laki2 nie dengar cite roomate aku, die tros tekejot...
katenye sopan ke seorang pompuan maen guitar?
elok ke pompuan minat bola sepak?
katenye lg, maen guitar n minat bola sepak nie menyerupai lelaki...
ya rabbi!!
even aku nie cetek la jugak ilmu agama...
tp aku still faham konsep menyerupai lelaki...
guitar tue kalau diikutkan islam...
lelaki ke pompuan ke x bleh maen kan???
sbb alat muzik yg bertali...
kalau x salah aku la...
mana ada pon ckp pompuan x bleh maen guitar sbb menyerupai lelaki...
bola sepak pulak...
x de pulak peraturan yg bola sepak nie just untuk lelaki...
huhuhu...
tension pulak aku...
ntah pape...
kdg2 org pompuan tau lg byk pasal bola sepak nak dibandingkn dgn lelaki...
haish...
pening btol...
x fhm aku...
abeh tue dh mmg payung synonym ngan pompuan...
then kalo org laki bwk bleh la aku ckp...
iee..x sopan la lelaki bwk payung...
menyerupai pompuan!!
mcm tue boleh????????
haish!!!

bosan..tp nak tulis gak

2009-05-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

recently teman2 byk berbicara ttg persahabatan...
aku agak terharu...
tp ada jugak yg wat aku rasa benci...
aku rasa menyampah...
because dlm byk2 teman yg aku ada...
cuma beberapa je yg btol2 seorang teman...
yg laen smuanya manis kt mulut je...
aku tau la mulut korg sexy...
pakai lipstick mahal2...
tp ape gune kalau setiap yg korg ckp x pnah btol...
huhuhu...
post aku nie lebey kpd mengingatkan diri aku sendiri...
dalam mencari teman...
kite harus bijaksana...
jgn cepat terpedaya...
aku igt aku dh dewasa...
tp rupa2nya aku masih lagi keanakan...
aku masih menganggap teman yg tiap2 mase ade dpn mata tue la the best of friends...
tp aku salah...
akak aku pnah nasihat aku...
"sis, you shouldn't be clinging on others that are called friends"
huhuhu...
dalam sungguh nasihat akak aku nie rupenye...
x ku sangke cempedak jd nangke...
hahaha...
tp ape2 pon...
aku dh realise smue tue...
aku dh jd a new version of me...
aku dh x peduli ape org kate...
kalo dpn2 org tue senyum ngan aku...
aku layan je...
kalau blkg aku die kutuk2 pon aku x kisah...
janji aku dh x kutuk2 org lg...
n aku wat vow utk diri sendiri...
aku takan lg sacrifice utk org yg bergelar teman...
melaenkan aku rase org tue btol2 seorg teman...
hahaha...
aku ttp pilih love drpd friends...

sehari je

2009-05-05T02:43:00.000-07:00

hahaha...
rajen btol aku post cite2 aku kt blog ea...
mase aku tgh surf2 blog org laen...
aku came across satu blog neh...
i found it interesting...
penulis blog neh ade address pasal taste org yg x same...
aku agak stuju...
patut ke bile kite tgk certain couples and tros kite wat judgements??
tgk n tros wat assumption is different from dengar a few stories n wat assumptions...
btol x???
pade pndpt aku la...
bile kite tgk org tue wat something, x semestinya org tue jahat/baek...
sbb tue baru first time kite tgk...
laen la kalau dh byk kali asyik nmpk bnde yg same...
dgr cite org pon same gak...
so x bleh la kite salahkan org bile org ckp2 pasal diri kite...
btol x???
erk...
aku x sure ape significant blog yg aku tgk tue nagn post aku...
tp aku rase ade persamaan...
hahaha...

i love you

2009-05-05T02:37:00.000-07:00

p0p0...
i love you...
tetibe je boo rndu p0 sgt2...
huhu...
mebi nie kot salah satu sbb boo wat blog neh...
p0p0...
slalu2 la jenguk blog boo ehh...
huhu...
boo rndu nk dating2 ngan p0p0...
hikhik...
ngade2...
mcm jaoh je bunyik...
pdahal dkt je pon...
x kire...
boo syg p0p0!!!

ye ke??

2009-05-05T02:15:00.000-07:00

mase fam aku wat reunion (ye ke?lbey kurang la), aku borak2 la ngan sis in law aku...
then die tnjuk aku hp die...
aku igt nk tnjuk gamba ke ape ke...
skali die tnjuk msg...
cuak...
aku igt aku tersalah sent msg...
hiiiiiiiiii...
rupe2nye msg pasal safety...
tekejot berok gak aku bace msg tue...
aku x bape igt struktur ayat dlm msg tue...
tp lbey kurang cmnie la...

if someone approaches you when you are in your car, with blood on his/her hand, asking for tissue papers, quickly lock your door and wind up your window...he/she may be a thief/killer/rapist/etc....

bayangkan...
ngan tissue paper je org bleh wat jahat...
ape la nk jd zaman skrg...

**to my classmates,aku pon slalu gak mnx tissue paper...tp aku nk lap idong aku...aku cpt bersin...aku bkn penjahat!!!!

salam

2009-05-05T01:38:00.000-07:00

teman-temanku semua sibuk blogging...
slalu jugak aku layan blog2 diorg...
mcm2 bnda yg diorg tulis...
kadang2 mengundang kemarahan...
kadang2 mengundang kemusykilan...
kadang2 mengundang kegembiraan...
kadang2 mengundang kekaguman...
dan yang paling penting...
mengundang aku untuk mencipta blog aku sendiri...

**namun harus diingatkan...aku x celik IT...jadi aku x pandai jadikan halaman ini suatu halaman yg menarik dan harus menerima anugerah....

***ingatan sekali lagi...walau blog aku x menarik,tapi aku masih menarik... :p

SALAM PERKENALAN DARIKU.........

silly empty me

~~wut would u feel~~

~~oh my god~~

~~happy birthday~~

~~di celah-celah kesibukan~~

~~kamu rasa~~

~~......................~~

~~ready to become a teacher cum mother~~

~~wifi maktab + SBE~~

~~harry potter and the half blood prince~~

~~i feel different~~

~~rendah diri~~

~~weekend~~

~~pics kot~~

~~ forgive me if i'm wild~~

~~love you~~

~~sombong sgt ke~~

~~saya rindu kamu~~

~~tiredness~~

~~sudden feelings~~

~~nak kawen~~

~~dark clouds~~

~~gone with the wind??~~

~~macam tue pon bleh~~

~~holiday~~

~~hokey!!~~

~~revelation~~

~~make it through the rain~~

~~mmg aku marah gila~~

~~dulu2~~

~~beautifool~~

~~ops..lambat plak~~

~~tiring~~

~~to love or not to love~~

~~cuba update minda anda~~

~~bosan..tp nak tulis gak~~

~~sehari je~~

~~i love you~~

~~ye ke??~~

~~salam~~