Wednesday, July 29, 2009

~~ready to become a teacher cum mother~~

ok...first thing first...a day before yesterday aku ngan aaron sepatotnya collect info pasal aktiviti koko...so kami pilih Persatuan Pengakap sbb pk koko dia ckp pengakap yg aktif...kebetulan cikgu pengakap neh adalah cikgu pendidikan kahs yg sgt bz...so kena la wat appointment...dia soh jmpa around 11.15a.m...lebey krg 11.30 aku ngan aaron p jmpa dia...interview la pasal pengakap...then ada selit2 pasal pendidikan khas...kt dlm bilik guru pend khas tue ada 3 class...lg dua kt bilik seblah...classes tue plak level 1,level 2 n level 4...aku pelik...awat plak level 2 then tros level 4...cikgu tue kata level 4 n level 5 x bleh dok dekat2...sbb depa neh la yg paling low dr segi iq,eq segala...plus hyper plak tue...then masa dok sembang2 aku dengaq klas level 2 bising...aku tgk la...then ada sorg budak neh,naufal nama dia...down syndrome...comel bangat...dia tgh tukaq baju...pkai short ngan tshirt ada kolar...bleh plak dia pakai tie skolah...heheh...dia tgh smpn baju skolah dia dlm beg masa tue..cikgu dia kata dia nk p keja...then dia pon wat2 mcm nek moto...mmg lawak gila...aku pon tros la sembang ngan cikgu tue...puan juraida...bila aku pusing tgk naufal tue, dia dh terbaring atas lantai...pegang dada dia...tekejot aku...sakit ka budak nie...skali dia jerit..."tolong...tolong...teman...tolong"...Puan Juraida tue dh gelak2...dia kata naufal neh suka berlakon...bleh kata tiap2 ari...tp mmg real ahh dia blakon...aaron pun stuju...then Puan Juraida tuecp budak down syndrome neh pembersih...sbb tue naufal tue tukaq baju dia...padahal basah sikit ja kena ayaq...hehehe...so aku concludekan,budak down syndrome lg pembersih dr kita sendri kan???hehehe...sgt comel...tiap2 ari lalu kt klas tue kalo nk p kantin...:)

then ari neh ada lg satu peristiwa...pukul 8.45 aku ngan aaron msok klas...after abeh klas, aku masok bilik guru...tmpt kami kt blkg skali...kt blkg tmpt kami ada meja makan n sofa...kt atas sofa tue aku nampak ada budak laki tgh tidoq...aaron ckp dia demam, tp parent tadak kt umah...kesiannya...aku asyik tgk budak tue ja...sbb dia tgh tidoq...bila dia bgn,aku tros p kt dia...muka dia merah n aku tau demam dia trok...aku tnya dh mkn ubat blom...dia ckp dh...sedih gila tgk dia...so aku tros p kt meja amik gula2 dlm beg aku...aku bg kt dia...hope gula2 tue bleh wat dia lupa sakit demam dia sat...even sat pon x pa...at least dia x rasa sgt...huhuhu...
bila balik kt tmpt aku,aku msg syamil...dia kata baiknya cikgu...bukan sbb baik ke x...tp sbb ada satu perasaan yg aku x bleh nk explain...sama mcm aku tgk naufal tue...aku rasa nk plok dia...tp x boleh kan...mana bleh sentuh pelajar berlainan jantina over2 kan...huhuhu...
maybe this is the right path for me to start my life...




love from a teacher + mother to be...LOL

Monday, July 27, 2009

~~wifi maktab + SBE~~



wifi maktab mmg x snonoh...

angin satu badan aku...
huhuhu...
lama gila x bleh online...
huhuhu...
neh pon bleh online sbb sbe...
cop2...
jgn slah phm...
aku x online kt skolah tau...
aku adalah bakal cekgu yg sgt baek...
aku kt starbucks...
so thanks to sbe...
disebabkan sbe aku dpt keta dgn kadar segera...
so aku suka...
bleh kuaq suka2...
and duet pon kuaq suka2...
tp suka2 pon bukan suka2 jugak...
erk...
apa aku merepek neh...
actually aku online neh sbb x tahan gila nk update blog...
huhuhu...
rasa cm byk gila bnda nk tulis kt dlm neh...
haih...
how to start...
sbe @ school based experience @ ros...
sgt menarik walaupon masa mula2 aku takot nk mati...
rasa nervous nk mampos...
padahal bukan mati pon...
huhuhu...
1st day kt skolah was fun...
and today is my second day...
tiresome!!!
waaaaa...
letih okey!!
kak madi 2nd day posting muntah2...
aku 2nd day sbe dh muntah2...
huhuhu...
penat dowh...
x larat btol...
sbb aku sekadar mengumpul maklumat ikot course preforma...
tp kawan2 group laen???
depa dpt masok kelas ganti cikgu...
dapat jaga exam...
tp aku????
tingin gak babe!!
nk jugak test power...
hehehehe...
watever it is,i did not regret choosing teaching as my profession...
sgtlah menarik ok...
dan aku sronok tgk budak2 kecik senyum kt aku...
hehehe...
even nama skolah Sek Keb Bakar Arang,tp budak2 putih2 x mcm arang...
hahahahaha...
mengong!!
k lah...
aku berdoa semoga wifi mktb kembali pulih...
sbb abeh la duet aku kalo tiap2 kali nk online kena p kedai...
hostel bayaq skali wifi tau!!!!!!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

~~harry potter and the half blood prince~~


waa...
smlm dh tgk harry potter...
igtkan x ramai nk tgk...
rupanya ramai gak...
comments???
best...
tenang...
x byk konflik...
so lebih senang nk fhm cita...
ginny cpl ngan harry kot...
ron@won-won cpl ngan hermione...
and cita kali neh byk unsur2 komedi...
x byk lawan2...sikit ja...
and i wonder who RAB is...
remus is it??
and the half blood prince is actually prof snape...
huhuh...
dumbledore mati...
waaaaa...
iskk...
to those yg x tgk g sori la aku dh cita...
g la tgk...
to me it is fun...:p

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

~~i feel different~~

just now i tried to log into VUW's portal...
and i managed to browse through the e-library...
at that moment i feel different...
i realized that i have a very big responsibility to be carried along...
i realized that my dream is almost a reality...
i realized that it is now not the time for me to fool around...
i realized that this is serious...
and i realized that i'm leaving my family and friends very soon...
huhuhu...

i'm excited to be part of the new zealand culture!!

~~rendah diri~~



wut would u feel when u know that your love's ex is much prettier than u??
and u know the fact that your love once doubted to start a relationship with u???
and u know the fact that your love was once in a dilemma whether to choose u or his ex????
and now u know dat they keep in touch behind ur back?????
and the fact that he prohibited u from keeping in touch with ur ex and denied that he had been in touch with his ex??????

rasa rendah diri...
sbb dia cantik...
tinggi,slim,slender...
adorable,sweet,nice...
and me?
pendek,gemok,gelap...
x sweet,x nice...
huhuhu...
angah...i want you...
iskk...

Monday, July 13, 2009

~~weekend~~


yaikss...
excited waiting for this thursday...
after almost 2 years staying in sp, this thirsday is my first time going to kl from sp...
sbb slm neh kalau nk g kl mak soh balik umah dulu...
hihihi...
and this thursday i'm going to watch harry potter...
sayang kakak aku...
dh booking tiket awal2...
hikhik...
syok2...
walaupun keja melambak2...
but i just x boleh nk tahan la feeling nk tgk movie...
hikhik...
tambah2 kalau x pyh guna duet sndri kan...
hahaha...
angah...wait for me!!!



azuliana n azuwiza

Sunday, July 12, 2009

~~pics kot~~


as promised...
here are some pics...
x byk pon...


11th July 2009,Saturday















tggu pizza kot...s xmpai2...
















merenung receipt...10 mins g x smpai dpt voucher...















lunch time...mana sushi???















kasot idaman...tp mahai...huhu...



12th July 2009,Sunday















hihi...my nightie...















neh plak sluaq...comei kan...zati pon ada...

~~ forgive me if i'm wild~~

tajuk entry x bleh blah...
actually tadak apa pon...
saja ja nk cita activities weekend neh ngan today...
okay...
start with friday...

Friday, 10th of July 2009...

ari neh emotional breakdown...i dunno why...but suddenly satu feelings yg kurang enak singgah kt ati aku neh...ya auu...tension yg teramat sgt...huhu...at first nk g sunway ngan zati smua...
disebabkn oleh plan yg agak last minute tros x jd...huhuhu...i'm so sedey...then dpt plak msg member2 rapat skolah yg diorg balik...waaa...why didn't i go home???????huhu...dgn mata yg berair aku tgk2 skype...baca shoutout org...(bleh release tension kot)then aku skype fidah...fidah nk kuaq ngan soleh...p cs...nak ikott!!!!hehehe...aku kejot zati,tp dia tamau ikot...emotional breakdown gak...huhuhu...then apa lg...msg neda...neda on ja...nk beli beg kuliah baru katanya...so at 2.30 p.m. kami pon bertolak...nek teksi pakcik md noor...tq pakcik!!smpai kt cs fidah ckp dia lapaq...so disebabkan baru terbaca blog zack pasal cheezy chikaroni aku pon tingin nk mkn...mcm best...fidah n soleh pon order yg sama...neda ja yg p beli mcflurry...dh lunch katanya...after kenyang (mmg sedap pon...i like cheese!!) kami pon berangkat...soleh n fidah stop kt thai fair...memandangkan aku tau yg aku akan menghabiskan duet kalo stop kt situ,so aku pon ajak neda masuk the store...nk usha jeans...jeans ada 4,tp satu ja celuih...gemok kan aku???huhuhu...tp malang skali x dak yg bekenan...neda plak usha bag...bag kuliah dia tecabot zip...n she managed to buy a bag with 50% off...even after discount,still mahal...tp x pa...cantik n worth it...confirm tahan lama...jalan pnya jalan,last2 masok giordano...giordano tgh wat offer jeans...so aku pon beli la satu...n yg sedey size dh bertambah...huhu...dr 26 dh jd 27...malunya...huhu...after dh merayau2 kt cs,aku ended up beli jeans,buku tajuk aisyah (tingin nk jd baik ok),tudung,handsocks...huhu...even x dak duet,but i need all these stuffs...huhu...before balik sempat la p dinner kt old town coz i really want to eat chicken hor fun...then balik la mktb...letih ok...

Saturday,11th of July 2009...

smalam ronggeng ngan kawan2,ari nie aku kuaq ngan aku pnya sweetheart...huhuhu...sedey ok...terharu yg amat...disebabkan financial aku tgh x stabil disebabkan oleh personal probs (those who know only know,erk??),syamil ckp g penang fully support...huhuhu...terharu gila...baby i love you!!bertolak from maktab around 10 a.m...lama gila x kuaq jalan2...dkt 6 minggu kot...huhu...smpai penang dlm kol 11...breakfast kt mcd seberang jaya...around 11.50 baru bertolak ke pulau...first destination mesti arr queensbay kan...tp aku x expect pon tgh sale menggila...huhuhu...dup dap dup dap jantung aku...mak aiii...boleh kata smua kdai tgh sale...tension gila...p queue kt gsc...panjang berjela...syamil nk tgk transformers,tp ada dua hall showing at the same time,dua2 full...dh bpa minggu dh...haish...so we ended up watching drag me to hell...aku x suka cita tue...wat jantong aku tekejot ja...huhu...before tgk movie tue ada dlm sejam lebey sbb movie start 2.20p.m...so aku pon jln2 ngan syamil...skali lg aku mengamok...knapa?sbb x bleh shopping...huhuhuhu...trok btol ok...so utk coolkan aku syamil ajak mkn ice cream...huhu...kebetulan plak haagen daaz tgh wat promotion...beli 2 scoops dpt free 2 scoops...so dgn bestnya mkn ice cream...aku pnya combination x snonoh...belgian choc mixed ngan apricot...hahahaha...syamil pnya aku x igt...tp both chocs...yg x tahannya bleh plak dia mkn smpai abeh...x offer kt aku pon...bertuah pnya bf...huhuhu...after tgk movie kami tawaf qb...jln2...then syamil ckp nk beli apa2 x...aku ckp tingin nk beli cardigan...so off we go...cari cardigan...disbbkn tgh sales dpt la aku satu dgn harga rm29...happynya...jalan lagi...masok kdai ladylike...then syamil ckp beli la baju lengan panjang...aku x sure nk ke x...then dia ckp kalau nk amik ja...huhuhu...aku pon ended up dpt satu baju...kaler kuning (aku x pnh ada baju kaler kuning)...happy lg...heheh...masa tgh tron escalator aku nmpk ada sale bantal2 n cadar smua...so aku pon beli la bantal baru (hobby:kumpul bantal...x caya tnya org yg pnh msok blk aku)...i bought one for zati...hehehe...then of course la lapaq...lunch...venue:sushi king...syamil pnya first time...and as expected,dia x suka...hihihi...tp aku suka...ahaks...so aku yg mkn byk...before balik sempat singgah al-ikhsan...waaaaa....kt sini la jmpa kasot idaman aku...mahal...rm229...mana mampu...setakat mampu snap pics ja...uhuk2...sedey...tp still dpt something...syamil beli 3 quarter nk pkai maen bola,so aku pon automatic dpt satu...hehehe...sayang abg!!:p...then dlm 6p.m. kami pon meredah kesibukan jalan raya balik ke tanah besaq...sempat singgah sunway...tp bkn dok dlm sunway...parking ja...tp p makan kt domino's...erk...makan lg kan??????hahahaha...n yg plg terharu utk ari neh...masa on the way awal2 pg tue, aku sibuk letak2 beg n kasut kt tmpt duduk blkg...masa aku tgh amik sweater syamil,ada smthg mcm kotak...i asked him "apa dia bwh sweater neh?"...dia ckp kotak...angkat la...after angkat,aku senyum...it was a present from him...dpt handbag converse...yeay!!!of course la handbag tue yg aku guna masa jalan2 kan...matching ok ngan baju...hahahaha...

Sunday,12th July 2009...

hahah...actually ari neh dh start kuliah...started at 8 we had a lecture on Islamic Asian Civilization, at 9 we had a lecture on Classroom Management, then at 10 we had break...at 11 we had a two hours lecture on English Language Teaching Methodology...then we were told that we were to have an hour lecture on Classroom Management from 3 to 4...Dr Newton will be observing...before that, from 2 to 3 my class had our tutorial...so, since that we're on "mc", Zati and i chose not to go back to the hostel for just only an hour...we wandered in the koperasi when i said to zati "zati,after klas satg kuaq nk?nk mkn kek"...then she said "kuaq la nak?"...and we smiled at each other...hahaha...apa lg...sewa keta koop...sejam sudah...syamil yg kebetulan ada kt situ pon follow...joe tamau...so off we go...cs la destination...mana lg...tue yg plg dekat...dgn beruniformkn baju batik maktab,kami pon ronda2...hahaha...syamil p beli mcvalue lunch...aku n zati p beli kek kt secret recipe...and we managed to get back to maktab before 2...hahaha...best!!and just now...i just had my bath n so did zati...she told me that she wanted to go to the "kedai mkn" nk beli teh o ais...her favourite leisure time activity is makan ais ketul...huhuhu...then i said "jom kuaq"...hahaha...n again we did crazy stuff...sewa keta koop for an hour...p cs...i thought of buying polisterine nk wat notice board...smpai cs popular dh nk ttp...huhu...naek kt the store, tadak la pulak polisterine...huhuhu...the i asked zati "p tesco mau?"...n of course la she agreed...hahaha...sma2 sewel...smpai kt tesco, zati p withdraw duet...aku masok dulu...nk cari polisterine neh...tp malangnya aku slh lintas department...aku lalu kt bahagian clothings...hahaha...aku jmpa baju tidoq...comelnya...rm12...mcm ok ja...beli la...aku amik satu...baru lintas x smpai satu rack,aku jmpa sluaq tidoq plak...alah...cute...err...rm12...then zati pon smpai...zati:waaa...comelnya...nak2...so both of us amik sluaq yg sama...hahaha...jalan p cari polisterine...rupa2nya kt tesco pon tadak...hahaha...kuaq nk beli bnda len...tp bnda len yg dibeli...and we managed to buy big gulp...:P masa blk,zati drive...fyi,dia dh lama x drive keta manual...bak kata zati,"dh lama x drive keta manual kecik"...n guess wut...smpai kt traffic light be4 tmn ria jaya,zati nk overtake keta from left...and mmg dkt gila...dia mcm tamau break ok...and i ended up screaming "aaaa...miss!!miss!!"...gedik gila jerit...tp spontan...nk wat cmna...huhuhu...around 10.30 baru smpai mktb...with laughters ok!!

so...forgive me if i'm wild...hahahah...

p/s : actually nk upload pics...tp mcm lembab ja...esok je lah...hehehe...

Thursday, July 9, 2009

~~love you~~


I'm going to try to speak the words
that my heart wants you to know
I want you to see what you mean to me
and why I love you so.

Nobody else can know my thoughts
and touch my soul like you can
No one can melt my heart like you do
simply by holding my hand.

I need nothing more from you than this-
to know that you'll always be mine
And the promise of your love in my life-
until the end of time.

Today is the perfect time to tell you
what you mean to me.
How I depend on you to love me
for who I am and believe in me
for what I hope to be.

How I feel loved each time you smile
or touch my hand and,
when I need someone to listen,
I know you'll understand.

So Ahmad Syamil Abdul Rahim,
I celebrate my love for you,
grateful that we have the happiness
life gives to just a few.

scribbled by azu....


Wednesday, July 8, 2009

~~sombong sgt ke~~

huhu...
haza tagged me in her note kt fb...
and i found that it was interesting...
i have to tag people in the note...
the note consists of 15 questions about me...
hahaha...
and i tagged some of my friends...
and i was surprised since most of them answered question no 4 with almost the same answer...
jom tgk...
huhuhu...

To anyone who's damn free, or feeling bored.Don't bother about the tag. Try this !

It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
Leave some memories that you and I had together.

Don't send a message, leave a comment in HERE.

1. How long have you known me?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
8. When's the last time you saw me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. How well do you know me?
11. What's my favorite music?
12. What is the most memorable event spent with me, you can never forget?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. What is my best attribute?
15. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?


and neh plak jawapan kwn2 aku ikot turutan...

- syafiq

1. since secondary school
2. yup
3. 1st meet, form 1, 1st talk, form4..huhu
4. cute??
5. yup... Read More
6. adorable
7. azu, used to call you that
8. if i not wrong, raya in 2007
9. form 5
10. dunno...a little about ur family, about u like/dislike
11. english song??
12. 6/12/2006, time kuar sambut bufday haziq
13. yup
14. friendly.=)
15. yup..haha

- zati

1. since first day i saw u in mktb.
2. yepi.
3. tym ldv,i enterd ur class sbub kna combine.
4. belagak.haha.xpandang kami pon.hu.hehe.
5. nope.damn ur nice. *wink wink*... Read More
6. baek dlm segala.
7. azoo o aju.rs kiut miut nm2 tesebot.haha.
8. tadi.at 6 before u went out.hehe.
9. dominos.haha.
10. sket2 kot,met ur parents,met ur sis,met pia.
11. savage garden - truly,madly,deeply. *wink*
12. time dlm clas.d mana gstk berleluasa.haha-merdeka 2008-
13. nope.
14. loving me.haha. *wink wink*
15. definitely bebeh!

- naia

1.dlm bape2 hari pas msuk mktb.haha..
2.teman tp mesra.
3.when, x igt la..haha.. tp how, sbb msuk mktb sme la..
4.sme mcm zati kot.hek~jgn mare..
5.xpulak.rupe2nye ok je..tp suke kne kn org, 2 la kamu...hehe... Read More
6.montel..:)
7. liana..nmpk lembut.hehe
8.la.. br pg td kot kt klas.haha
9.susu.. azu mnum susu smpi drjh 3 kn?haha..
10.x la well sgt kot, as classmate, n kwn utk gelak sme2.hehe..
11.ape ek azu? azu ske lgu yg nk wat org tdo kn.. sbb ske tuls poem kot.hii~
12.azu x nk kne calit kek ms besday tina, berusaha lr, last2 kne gak.haha..
13.still couldn't.hehe..
14.graduate attributes? hehehe..
15.nk gak! nk gak!

- che kudd

1.hampir 8 thun :)
2.friends forever
3.ms form 1 tp xrpt sgt.
4.comel tp cm sombong jaa. *sorry azu :B
5.x dahh.jap ja rs camtu bl start knl lm2.hihi... Read More
6.sweet... *serius rs azu sweet sgt
7.azu sbb azu bhsa kan diri "azu" :) n dulu azu pgil kami2 pon
dgn nm kami2 kan.hihii.
8.dh lm sgttttttt.rs nya lps balik plkn.tido umah nazreen n singgap umah azu.ingt x? *klau xingt,sedih nyaa :((
9.teacher wannabe :)
10.xtau rahsia azu :D
11.xsilap dulu azu suka A1.skg xtau sbb xdekat dgn azu dh.klau silap jgn mrh azu.hukk.
12.haaa mkn dkt pizza sbb bisnes kad raya kita bejaya.kihkih
13.klau boleh nk jd kan bestie mcm org lain,gurau2 cam org lain,share mcm2,tau sikit2 bnda y important pasal azu.tu lah.hihi. :) eh,kna explain ka?hihi.org lain x pon.ngaaa terover.
14.soft spoken tp kdg2 garangggg.
15.boleh jgk tp cam cuak ja.muhahaha

- kak belle

1. nearly 8 years.
2. sisters? ;)
3. 2002, syed putra, senior-junior meet.
4. sombong? :p
5. sooo not true! :D... Read More
6. manja!
7. nickname azu je bley?sgt sesuai dgn kamu. :)
8. last year,pavilion.
9. ur seductive smile.hehe!
10. erk?
11. hav no idea.hee.
12. when we were gossipping~
13. no at d moment.
14. sgt baek hati.
15. yesssss!

waaa....mostly ckp aku sombong...hukhuk...first impression trok neh...sombong ke saya???waaaaaa...

Monday, July 6, 2009

~~saya rindu kamu~~


Angel
I have a dream of you I can’t defy
You’ve been on my mind
Don’t go
I’d be lost without you by my side
Lost and on my own
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel
Angel
Your brightest star is shining next to mine
Every night and day
Do you know?
Stars explode and then they fade away
Then they fade away
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel
Won’t you please be my baby?
Come by and I’ll lay you down
I want you and I’m saying I love you too
Won’t you please be my honey?
I’m so sorry that I let you down
Your eyes are breaking my heart in two
Break my heart in two
Angel
May the one above us keep you safe
For the rest of days
If he knows
How I love the smile upon your face
He’d guide you here to stay
Yeah I’ve fallen for an angel


hukhuk...
tgh melayan perasaan...
tgh menahan kesakitan kt perut yg amat sgt...
tgh menunggu pengertian...
hukhuk...
nk nanges...

~~tiredness~~

zati used to say this to me...

"a man's love is not as great as a woman's love"

i wondered whether it's true or not...
lately i felt tired...
tired of loving him...
tired of missing him...
tired of trying to change for him...
tired of pleasing him...
tired of thinking for his feelings...
i'm tired...
just tired...
because i know he doesn't know how deep is my love for him...
he doesn't know that each time i woke up i think of him...
he doesn't know wherever i go,whatever i do i always think of him...
he just doesn't know...
huhuhu...
help me...
i'm tired...